I had a great time this Sunday doing my Author Day at the Loves Romances ebook Yahoo group-everyone there was very friendly and made me feel welcome.
It also massaged my little writer’s ego that, when I mentioned in passing The Black Dragon (my unsubbed novel that I still adore but need to get off my lazy butt and show someone!), people actually asked questions about it!I’m sure they were just being polite, but honestly, it was less an ego massage than a “duh”.
Why the hell haven’t I submitted that? What’s wrong with me? I only had an excuse for the first few months after I finished it-it was an entry in the Goldren Heart so I really couldn’t submit it until I’d heard back on that (didn’t final, but did come close-one more tenth of a point was all I needed. Damn.) But after that, there was, and is, no excuse. (Pregnancy was an excuse not to write-well, not an excuse, because it totally blocked me, but still. It was not an excuse not to send out a query letter for a book that was already done and that I knew people enjoyed reading.)
Yes, part of me is convinced the book will never find a home. It’s not an Erorom, so I’m afraid the big unwritten rule I break (my hero kills the bad guy, instead of waiting for him to drown, or letting random highwaymen do it, or trying to rescue him from a cliff but the bad guy falls and dies anyway, or whatever other deaux ex machina are brought in to keep the hero from actually taking real revenge) will be a problem. Erorom breaks more rules all around, so I’m not worried about such a plot point there. Which is good, since I’m a bloodthirsty kind of girl. But TBD isn’t Ero, and I don’t want to make it so-it would mess with the characters too much. Frankly, my hero would be a total hypocrite and nowhere near the man he really is if I let him play willy-nilly in the heroine’s pants. Or chemise.
But I’ve woken up this morning filled with a terrible resolve. I will re-edit it (it’s been a year or so since I even read it) and I will start subbing it.
(And the first review for my Teaser came in-Maysreviews rated it “Excellent-4 stars”! Happy me.)