Yeah, I know. I was supposed to come back on Wednesday and post but I didn’t get to. And yesterday I spent the day doing one of three things:
1. Humoring the Faerie when she insisted on sitting in my lap;
2. Baing peanut butter cakes (I promise I’ll put the recipe on the Overflow blog this weekend);
3. Hunting for 1300 words of a story that somehow disappeared or got saved in a temporary file or I-don’t-know-the-fuck-what, but it wasn’t at the end of the story like it was supposed to be. GAHR!! Bleh. Not fun.
Yes, Mercury Retorgrade is upon us again. I know in a lot of ways astrology is a bunch of shit. I check my horoscope at Astrology Zone every month. I even read my rising sign’s forecast, too. But it’s almost never accurate. I was supposed to be having a great, lucky, and wonderful month; instead…
Well, instead I feel a little shitty. I feel isolated and like people are whispering about me or avoiding me. I feel like people are ascribing motives or thoughts to me that aren’t true; that they think nefarious things.
Part of it is probably the retrograde. As I said, I don’t necessarily believe in astrology as a way to forecast events but I do know that every once in a while I feel this way, I get that creeping dread running its cold little snail-trails up my spine, and almost inevitably it’s time for a retrograde.
Is anyone else feeling isolated these days?
Part of it is the same old thing, being not only an outsider from a different country but being an outsider in a small rural town. Being home alone with a little one all day and weekends are more of the same except there’s a husband around too.
Part of it may be the impending visit of my stepdaughter, who is a good kid but still not mine, so when she’s here it feels like my house isn’t mine either. Like I have to always be on my guard, because there are strange eyes watching.
I’m actually fine; I know this post seems a little down and depressing (sorry) but I’m actually just trying to explore what sort of effects the greater environment still has on us. The planets and the cycles of the moon; do you write better when the moon is full, or new, or does it matter at all? Do you notice the retrograde? I find I often have a hard time writing hot scenes when Merc is retro. Plot points seem to jumble in my head; scenes must be discarded.
This one lasts until the 14th of July, I believe.
And I’ll be blogging over at Deliciously Naughty later about villains. So that will be more fun.